Transcendental & Cervical Orgasms

I felt like his cock was the cock
of the cosmos.

It was beyond this world.

How often have I met people
who express that orgasm became
an opportunity for catharsis?

Catharsis
was my transcendental orgasm.

Incredibly.

Powerfully.

Cathartic.
Loud.

I didn’t even realize
how loud I was.

It was just happening
because the catharsis
was happening.

I was clearing.

I was purifying.

I was being healed
by this beautiful,
powerful,
yin-like,
immense,
infinite sexual energy
that I allowed
to flow through me.

Hello my loves.

Bienvenidos.

Welcome to my podcast.

I’m Catrina Armendariz,
somatic therapist,
sex and intimacy coach,
and founder of Esencia.

An online platform devoted
to embodiment,
sensuality,
healing,
and feeling fully alive
in your body again.

Meditation.
Breathwork.
Movement.
Embodiment.

In this podcast,
I invite you into my journey
through sexuality
and the evolutionary unfolding
of the heart.

This is a space for intimacy,
vulnerability,
remembrance,
and transformation.

This is a shame-slaying podcast.

If you’re not ready
to release shame,
this may not be the place for you.

But if you are ready
to step into the fire
of transformation,
welcome.

May this nourish
your heart’s blossoming,
your reclamation
of outrageous pleasure,
your fuck yes energy,
and your evolution
into your most empowered self.

Are you ready for this?

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with beautiful beings
all around the world.

Let’s dive.

Hello beautiful beings
and lovely souls.

I’m Catrina.

This is the first podcast
I’m recording.

Or maybe the hundredth first.

I’m here on the Big Island
in a magical town called Pāhoa.

A little hippie paradise.

A nourishing nook
in the corner of the universe
where I’ve been restoring
my nervous system.

I’m from Hawai‘i originally,
and being back home
after all these years
has been surreal.

O‘ahu feels overcrowded now.

Chaotic.
Intense.

I truly felt
like I got vomited out of it.

And somehow,
I landed exactly
where I needed to be.

This episode
is about transcendental
and cervical orgasms.

I recently experienced
a cervical orgasm,
and it inspired
this conversation.

I’ve experienced energetic orgasms
since a very young age.

There’s an immense spectrum
of orgasm available
within the feminine body.

The most powerful orgasm
I had ever experienced
— up until recently —
happened during pilgrimage.

In 2018,
after my mother passed away,
I left New York City.

Everything went into storage.

I devoted myself completely
to yoga,
tantra,
pilgrimage,
and practice.

During an early morning practice,
something began happening
inside my body.

The most powerful orgasms
I had ever experienced
began moving through me.

It felt like
all the orgasms
in the universe
multiplied infinitely.

Words truly cannot
capture it.

There was intense pain too.

Piercing energy
shooting upward
from my pelvis
into the crown
of my head.

Through Kundalini practices,
I had cultivated
tremendous life force.

But I hadn’t yet learned
how to soften
and allow that energy
to move naturally.

Emotional blockages
manifest physically.

Breathwork can begin
clearing those channels.

And when the body detoxifies,
sounds emerge.
Trembling happens.
Catharsis happens.

Later,
in India,
I spoke with my teacher.

I told him:

“This energy hurts.
It feels like it wants release.
But I’m afraid
of what will happen
if I let go.”

And he said:

“Then let it go.”

“Don’t force it.
Don’t contain it.
Let the energy flow.”

So I did.

And what followed
was the most expansive,
blissful,
purifying orgasmic experience
of my life.

The orgasm happened to me
like surrender.

Like the universe itself
moving through my body.

Clarifying me emotionally.
Mentally.
Spiritually.
Physically.

It felt as though
I was plugged directly
into the energetic system
of the cosmos.

Everything began orbiting.

Clearing.
Purifying.
Liberating.

And then came
the visions.

I became Durga.

The destroyer of ego.

Memories surfaced.

Stories dissolved.

Compassion emerged.

Forgiveness emerged.

Celibacy became
part of that healing.

Not repression.

Cultivation.

Fast forward
to the cervical orgasm.

Sexuality felt new again.

Like rediscovering
my body
from an entirely new place.

I met a beautiful man.

A deeply safe presence.

And that safety
opened something in me
I will never forget.

The cervix
is profoundly energetic.

Connected to the heart.
Connected to the crown.

A portal.

Mantak Chia refers
to the cervix
as the highest gate.

And honestly,
it became
my favorite orgasm.

Every time
his cock touched
my cervix,
it felt like
a portal opening.

A tidal wave of energy
moved upward
through my body.

Borders dissolved.

Between myself,
the cosmos,
and my partner.

Everything became one field.

The experience
didn’t require an ending.

It wasn’t about climax.

It was about expansion.

It felt like
the cock of the cosmos.

Beyond this world.

The orgasm itself
felt clarifying.

Healing.
Purifying.
Transformative.

Compared to clitoral orgasm,
cervical orgasm felt
deeply internal.

Resourcing.
Energizing.
Expansive.

Trauma creates tension.

The body locks.

Energy stops flowing.

But safety changes everything.

Safety within yourself.

Safety with another.

Safety in surrender.

Through de-armoring,
breath,
presence,
and feeling,
we begin opening again.

Releasing grief.
Anger.
Sadness.
Bliss.

When you allow yourself
to fully feel,
you open yourself
to immense pleasure.

Cervical orgasm
carries a profound
euphoric depth.

Slow.
Yin.
Expansive.

Emotion
is energy in motion.

Orgasm can become
catharsis.

Catharsis
was my transcendental orgasm.

Incredibly.

Powerfully.

Cathartic.
Loud.

I was clearing.

I was purifying.

I was being healed
by infinite sexual energy
moving through me.

Can we allow ourselves
to open?

To soften?

To let energy flow?

This is episode one
on cervical orgasm.

And I already know
there will be more.

Big hugs.
Big kisses.

And I’ll see you
in the next episode.

Thank you my loves
for joining me.

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Espero que hayas disfrutado
este episodio.

Gracias por darte
este espacio conmigo.